i hate goodbyes

i know they're just for now, but still.

After the show, we went out to farellis. OH before the show, they realized the whistles were missing. So I drove to the store and bought three more in under a half hour. go me.
anyway, farellis. Hung out.

Andrea left first, I only got a bit teary with her. then svea left, I think. When Katie went to leave I started shaking. I couldn't even say anything because if i tried i would have cried. ha. a rhyme. and then it was like.... everyone left at once. bye bye kate and julia. then... dylan and jackie and kirsten and paul and steven and eddie and kristina and travis and justin and kyle jordan. I'm sorry if i missed your name. there were a lot of people there is all. But i'm going to miss..... everyone. I hate saying goodbye. I can never say what I acutally want to say to the people i care the most about, because I start crying. ugh. But hugs are good. I love hugs. and I love good hugs, which is what you get when you leave.

Then I got back to my room and cried for a bit. I have to wake up early to pack more. Man, it hasn't even been a year since I left this room the first time. I know it's going to go by fast. I'm nt sure if i want it to. I really hope that I can live for london while I'm in London. Leave PLU problems at home. At PLU actually. it's just, I know how much everything can change in a semester, and I hope I don't miss too much. I'm going to miss everyone. You know who you are. I love you. watch my video if you miss me. I've got skype.

I havent even left the country yet, not for 2 days. just slightly over 48 hours. ugh. sleeo now.